You know you aren’t really a horrible mother, but sometimes you know could have said or done something differently?
Being a good mother is the most important thing to me, so I am always critiquing myself.
“Maybe I shouldn’t have said that.”
“That was too harsh.”
“I should have been more firm.”
“I’m too hard on her.”
“I’m not hard enough.”
I stress myself out sometimes worrying about whether I’m doing the right thing. I’ve been told to relax and I know I need to, but sometimes it’s easier said. I can be having a great day, but when something is off with my daughter, it can ruin my entire day. I know that’s not good, but it’s true 😕
I think as Mommies, we’ll always have that worry that we didn’t handle things the way we should have. I supposed it’s because we love our babies so much that we want to handle things “perfectly.”
Working Mommies, do you ever feel guilty about working??
I mean, I have to work to pay the bills and my daughter knows it, but I still see that hint of disappointment when I tell her I can’t make it to her school program or that I can’t go on a trip.
I would love to be able to be a school mom like my mother was, always at the school helping out and chaperoning on trips. But Mama gotta work!
People often tell me, “You’re such a great mother.” And I appreciate it. But to be honest, sometimes I don’t feel so great. I write about why in Confession From An Imperfect Mother and I suppose I’m still going through the process of reconciling with that part of my past. I have to continually pray to counter those guilty feelings that try to creep in from time to time.
It’s an everyday struggle and every day I pray for God to help me keep the faith that everything is going to be alright.
Ok. My rant is over lol. Was having a moment.
-Mizz K ♥